I repeat again... I am NOT petty, or even trying to be petty (but think nobody will actually admit she herself is petty anyway.. lolx). If u have been in my shoes for the past few years, you would hav understand why sometimes i'll show my displease when someone become too insensitive about stuff..
I mean, hav u ever been teased almost everyday by your friends? Do you even know how it feels like?? I don't mean simple teasings like "u damn short lor", "u look chao-dar (black)!"... it's more like "your ears damn big leh", "eh, big ear girl", "why u hav so much hair on yr legs??", "can i see yr legs ? *see up close* so hairy!" and alot more... one even try to pluck a hair out.
Wad de hell rite.
Can you imagine how much i'd to go through everyday during my jc life???? I always juz played along or juz smiled or laughed it off.. but when u kept getting these kind of stupid insensitive comments from guys (and they're supposed to be my frenz or even good frenz lor..) for TWO bloody yrs, i bet u would be like me, upset at countless pts of my 2years-life... Worse still, i had to keep pretending that i'm not bothered by them at all... when in actual fact, i do.. terribly. Nobody will ever understand this feeling, coz noone in her right mind will let ppl do this to her. Think that was when i started to feel more and more inferior too.
But i cant really blame them la, coz it's me who allowed them to do so... the first few times they commented, i played along and joked with them... and i think dat gave them the idea that i'm ok with the teasings, so they juz continued for the next 2yrs. I mean, i'm OK with teasings, as long as u know the limit and also know when to stop. But they were too insensitive to stop from doing it every year, every month, every week and mayb even everyday!
Dun ask me why i din tell them off... i really dunno. Mayb coz i din wan such stuff to affect our friendship.. or mayb coz i think it's dumb to argue over such trivial stuff, even though i cried over it for alot of times (i easily tear u see...).. or mayb coz i juz din know how to fight for myself. Come to think of it, i was dumb to keep mum.
And because of dat, i promise myself i'll not let history repeat itself.
*sigh* it's hard actually. Whenever i try to defend myself, it always doesn't seem to work... or will simply end up coming out the wrong way...
i think i'm juz fated to get it all my life.
i think no point trying.
i think i shall stop.
i think life sux (except for the days when i'm with him.. he nvr ever once tease me, not even when i blur until can die kind... and also when i'm with carol... really love them both for that *hugs*).
PS: sorry for the thousands of 'but' and 'and'!! haha too braindead to think of more conjunctions... =P
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I repeat again... I am NOT petty, or even trying to be petty (but think nobody will actually admit she herself is petty anyway.. lolx). If u have been in my shoes for the past few years, you would hav understand why sometimes i'll show my displease when someone become too insensitive about stuff..
I mean, hav u ever been teased almost everyday by your friends? Do you even know how it feels like?? I don't mean simple teasings like "u damn short lor", "u look chao-dar (black)!"... it's more like "your ears damn big leh", "eh, big ear girl", "why u hav so much hair on yr legs??", "can i see yr legs ? *see up close* so hairy!" and alot more... one even try to pluck a hair out.
Wad de hell rite.
Can you imagine how much i'd to go through everyday during my jc life???? I always juz played along or juz smiled or laughed it off.. but when u kept getting these kind of stupid insensitive comments from guys (and they're supposed to be my frenz or even good frenz lor..) for TWO bloody yrs, i bet u would be like me, upset at countless pts of my 2years-life... Worse still, i had to keep pretending that i'm not bothered by them at all... when in actual fact, i do.. terribly. Nobody will ever understand this feeling, coz noone in her right mind will let ppl do this to her. Think that was when i started to feel more and more inferior too.
But i cant really blame them la, coz it's me who allowed them to do so... the first few times they commented, i played along and joked with them... and i think dat gave them the idea that i'm ok with the teasings, so they juz continued for the next 2yrs. I mean, i'm OK with teasings, as long as u know the limit and also know when to stop. But they were too insensitive to stop from doing it every year, every month, every week and mayb even everyday!
Dun ask me why i din tell them off... i really dunno. Mayb coz i din wan such stuff to affect our friendship.. or mayb coz i think it's dumb to argue over such trivial stuff, even though i cried over it for alot of times (i easily tear u see...).. or mayb coz i juz din know how to fight for myself. Come to think of it, i was dumb to keep mum.
And because of dat, i promise myself i'll not let history repeat itself.
*sigh* it's hard actually. Whenever i try to defend myself, it always doesn't seem to work... or will simply end up coming out the wrong way...
i think i'm juz fated to get it all my life.
i think no point trying.
i think i shall stop.
i think life sux (except for the days when i'm with him.. he nvr ever once tease me, not even when i blur until can die kind... and also when i'm with carol... really love them both for that *hugs*).
PS: sorry for the thousands of 'but' and 'and'!! haha too braindead to think of more conjunctions... =P