I know i commented that i am not petty (i think...) in my previous entry, but i also said that women usually don't admit even if they really are, rite?
Now, i cant help but think if i really AM afterall...
But it's rather difficult, i realise, to differentiate between vocalising your disagreements and being petty.
Both are, apparently, separated by a very FINE line.
I mean, if you are good at arguing your way through, people will think that it's reasonable for u to get irritated or even pissed.
If u don't know the correct technique to do so, u will (most of the times...) end up being labelled as petty.
I think i'm more of the latter, as i tend to step over that line. Dunno why but i juz find it hard to manage and express myself properly.
Everytime i try to vocalise my inner tots, it'll (without fail!) turn out agitated and i'll simply become abit tearful (as pointed out by burning charcoal.. lolx!) due to being worked up. Sometimes i really feel like poking my eyes n stoping them from emerging.. serious! =X
And alot of times, after all the arguments, i'll start to feel guilty when the person is being affected in some ways and think that i, myself, am being petty, and even think that people are seeing me as being petty too. Stupid to think that way i know... haa.
But i mean, if u cant convince yourself that u are justifiable in feeling that way, wad makes u think that others will be convinced?
And even if u can convince yourself and others as well, wad makes u think that u are not blowing sth small up?
I am trying hard to learn to express myself nowadays, and i must say, it's a difficult task for me because ever since i was born, i kept everything, really EVERYTHING, to myself.
If i was happy, i'd share with people.
If i was unhappy about sth or sb, i'd juz keep it to myself.
If i was upset, i'd bottle up and sob quietly into my pillow.
If i was pissed, i'd juz vent my anger at my pillow.
If i've a problem with sth, i'd pretend that it's the best thing in the world.
So sth as trivial as voicing your opinion on a certain thing (e.g. whether the top is nice on dat person), has been, and still is, a huge thinking process for me.
Coz of that, my bf says maybe that's why i always cant help getting over-agitated when arguing and sometimes even sound unconvincing.
But is that an acceptable excuse to be so called petty?
I always felt that i'm not a typical Leo as my temper's not that bad. I tot.
But now i'm having doubts.
Am i?
Am i not?
Or issit juz another pms period?
Who knows.
But i must thank olive, rozi, khad and tim for reassuring me that i'm not being petty (even tho at times i feel i am) coz that helps me feel beta in a great great GREAT deal (n keeps me saint too!)!!!
*muack*
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I know i commented that i am not petty (i think...) in my previous entry, but i also said that women usually don't admit even if they really are, rite?
Now, i cant help but think if i really AM afterall...
But it's rather difficult, i realise, to differentiate between vocalising your disagreements and being petty.
Both are, apparently, separated by a very FINE line.
I mean, if you are good at arguing your way through, people will think that it's reasonable for u to get irritated or even pissed.
If u don't know the correct technique to do so, u will (most of the times...) end up being labelled as petty.
I think i'm more of the latter, as i tend to step over that line. Dunno why but i juz find it hard to manage and express myself properly.
Everytime i try to vocalise my inner tots, it'll (without fail!) turn out agitated and i'll simply become abit tearful (as pointed out by burning charcoal.. lolx!) due to being worked up. Sometimes i really feel like poking my eyes n stoping them from emerging.. serious! =X
And alot of times, after all the arguments, i'll start to feel guilty when the person is being affected in some ways and think that i, myself, am being petty, and even think that people are seeing me as being petty too. Stupid to think that way i know... haa.
But i mean, if u cant convince yourself that u are justifiable in feeling that way, wad makes u think that others will be convinced?
And even if u can convince yourself and others as well, wad makes u think that u are not blowing sth small up?
I am trying hard to learn to express myself nowadays, and i must say, it's a difficult task for me because ever since i was born, i kept everything, really EVERYTHING, to myself.
If i was happy, i'd share with people.
If i was unhappy about sth or sb, i'd juz keep it to myself.
If i was upset, i'd bottle up and sob quietly into my pillow.
If i was pissed, i'd juz vent my anger at my pillow.
If i've a problem with sth, i'd pretend that it's the best thing in the world.
So sth as trivial as voicing your opinion on a certain thing (e.g. whether the top is nice on dat person), has been, and still is, a huge thinking process for me.
Coz of that, my bf says maybe that's why i always cant help getting over-agitated when arguing and sometimes even sound unconvincing.
But is that an acceptable excuse to be so called petty?
I always felt that i'm not a typical Leo as my temper's not that bad. I tot.
But now i'm having doubts.
Am i?
Am i not?
Or issit juz another pms period?
Who knows.
But i must thank olive, rozi, khad and tim for reassuring me that i'm not being petty (even tho at times i feel i am) coz that helps me feel beta in a great great GREAT deal (n keeps me saint too!)!!!
*muack*